(bkz: penny dreadful)
''you're unhappy.
you're isolated.
you think you are the cause of this unhappiness and are unworthy of affection.
so, you have few friends.
recently you lost something that you feel very important; your lover, your faith, your family, or all three.
you blame yourself for this so it makes you neurotic. so you don't sleep and don't eat, not anything healthy anyway.
you used to care about your appearance but you've lost interest in that so you avoid mirrors.
sunlight bothers you so you avoid that too for which you feel guilty. because you think it's unhealthy and even immoral not to like the sun.
you are not a woman of convention or else you wouldn't be here.
but you like to pretend that you are so people don't notice you.
but you like that as well and can sometimes dress to draw the eye. but then you think that the men who look at you are fools or worse to be taken in by such an obvious outward show.
so, instead, you are drawn to dark, complicated, impossible men. assuring your own unhappiness and isolation.
because, after all, you're happiest alone.
but not even then because you can't stop thinking about what you have lost.
again, for which you blame yourself. so the cycle goes on. the snake eating its tail.''